I don’t want recognition for this, or even for it to be shared. I’m not writing it to get views, although I am fully aware that some people will say that is why I did it. I’m also not writing this to glorify the horrible actions of this man. I just have something to say.
I’m angry,stunned, horrified, heartbroken, so many other words I just can’t express over what happened this past Friday. Today is Sunday, and the nation is still learning the details, as I’m sure we will be for some time. I suppose some people may read this long into the future and not be sure what I’m talking about, so I should probably explain what I know to this point.
On Friday, December 14, 2012 a man walked into Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown, Connecticut and shot to death 20 BABIES ages 6-7 and 8 adults. He also killed his mother at their home before going to the school. As it stands now originally the news reports were that his mother was a teacher at the school, but last I heard they are now saying she wasn’t, so they aren’t sure why he went to the school. To me, it doesn’t even matter, there was NO REASON FOR IT!! 20 children, young enough to still believe in Santa Claus, still innocent, still babies really.
I said I’m not writing this for any reason, other than I need to write. I’ve always expressed myself better in writing than I ever could trying to say this out loud. I don’t even really care if anyone reads it, I’m just that angry.
In the two days since there has been the talk of “we need stricter gun laws” “better available psychiatric care” and I agree with both of those, but here’s the thing. The guns were licensed to his mother, not him. He shot his mother and everyone else with her guns. We don’t know if he had psychiatric problems before that day, those are just rumours right now. They have said he was autistic, but autism doesn’t cause a person to gun down children. Maybe he absolutely hated his mother, I don’t know. Maybe he really did have serious mental heath issues before that day, I don’t know. I know he did that day.
I haven’t written his name, even though anyone reading this either knows it or will be able to find it easily, because I don’t want this to be all about him. I’m angry! I’m angry for the children, angry for the principal of the school killed trying to protect her students, angry for the parents that lost their babies, angry even for those there that day that didn’t lose their life or their children, because their innocence is forever gone. What I feel is nothing compared to those that lost a child, to those that were there, to what the first responders saw. Nothing I can say or do can change that.
I hate what our world has become. I hate that some people think that guns and violence are the answer to their problems. It in no way compares to what happened at Sandy Hook Elementary, but just over a month ago my mother-in-law’s house and my husband’s truck were crashed into by a guy fleeing police after a shooting. My husband’s truck was totalled and the corner of his mom’s house damaged, but thankfully nobody was injured. Turns out that the guy that crashed was ” a high-ranking gang member” according to the police. Seriously, we live in Northeast PA, not a big city!
I have one more thing I feel I have to address. I’ve seen it time and time again, after a tragedy like this some people just act stupid! I guess the Westboro Baptist Church is planning on protesting the funerals for those that were killed. Are all of them stupid? What exactly are they protesting anyway? Then a friend of mine posted on her Facebook page expressing her condolences and somebody calls her out for misspelling Newtown. Really, I’m positive everyone knew where she was talking about, that comment was just arrogant. Then someone didn’t like my post with the address for the school to send sympathy cards because the post I shared says Sandy Hill, Connecticut not Newtown. Trust me, it will get there either way. And, the best I’ve heard so far? Tomorrow several bloggers that I know and more I don’t ( I’m sure) are going silent on their blogs and pages in remembrance of the victims, myself included. Now, I know it doesn’t really DO anything, but it is a show of support. So, apparently, some bloggers are mad they were asked to participate. They won’t stop blogging for just one day to show their support because their blogs make them money. Really?! I honestly don’t know who those bloggers are, I’m not looking to start a fight, but really? You can’t take a day off? Whatever.
There is so much in this world that needs to change. I have a little girl, and I don’t want to be afraid to send her to school. She goes to preschool now, I can’t imagine if that happened at her school. People’s attitudes about everything need to change, before this happens again and again.